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PCOS experience

Today I am not going to talk about something that has never been talked or spoken. It is a very common and hot topic among adult girls these days.  PCOD, just like the name sounds so scary the disease is very common among the fertile girls and women. It is so common that it sits unndiagnosed with many poeple. I dont have the statistics with me, however i have spoekn to many people who didnot know that they had PCOD until it was accidently diagnosed while having routine body check up. It can be asymptomatic to mildly symptomatic to having gravely intense symptoms. Now it depends on each person;s perspective how they take if they have later symptoms. I take my symptoms as worse ones. I again know there are other people suffering from other illnes wheere their physical as well as mental health is affected. i want to say the symptoms that we have with PCOS is also not less too. Imagine, having your cysts back even after surgery. Imagine taking pills every day so that the bloody cyst's ...
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Reflection day 1

Let's  reflect today  a pure reflection, a reflection without judgement, a crystal clear reflection. Question from me to myself Q: how are you ? A: OKAYYYYYYishhhh. Q: Why a long ishhhh? A: i suppose there are layers of okay and not okay. On average i feel okay however i am not okay as well.  Q: Okayyy , sounds like you need to open up a little bit, would you mind? A: No not at all. I am happy to talk. I have actually been looking for the place to express myself. Q: Coming to that, do you have friends? A: I am an introvert, who cannot express myself  so i have very limited friends.  Q: it is snot bad to be introvert, however keeping your self inside the shell can be quite harmful. Breaking the shell and coming out and enjoying the beautiful world with full of surprise is quite necessary.  A: it is hard for me to come out of my zone , however when i am out i enjoy the life.  Q: oh good to know. What motivates you to come out then ? A: I need a little bi...
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Beautiful coincidence is life.

We are born and gradually learn to crawl, speak and walk. We try hard to succedd and be better than others and some compete to be better version of thenselves. After all of this, what is going to happen at the end?  We simply die ??? Is that the whole purpose of this universe spending so much of energy in creating life, so that it would end one day ?? It does not make sense to me. Should we do better and try hard to be the best , cause every thing is going to end one day . Or, we do something basic and live our life happily and do what you wanted to do in life and die happily. But then again question would arise, what if you love being in the competition and love the hustle of life and die in peace. It depends on each person how would you want to handle your life.  There must be something big behind the coincidences that happended billion of years ago with Big Bang. There has been series of coincidences to reach to the point where we are today. Lots of volcanos has erutped, ma...
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A little talk with myself.

I was talking to my friend and one thing hit me during our conversation.  I told her ,"XYZ (my friend) is very good by heart". I dont think I would like me, if all my charactaer and behaviors was of any other person My friend was surprised to hear that and seeing her being surprised. I rethought  of I had just said. A trail of thought came to my mind. However, for that moment i escaped from the conversation changing the topic.  After i reached home, I sat and thought, why would I not like me, if I was someone else?  Would it be the outer appearance I was not satisfied with ? or the inner side that only I know.  Here we go, there was a debate between two aspects of me.  Eveyone is not really good or evil, but here I am creating two aspects of me, good and evil side so that they can talk to each other and sort this out.  I felt sense of relief and sat there to hear what my good and evil part  would conclude.  Good :(talking to me ) It is always...
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What if 2020 was a person ?

Before shutting my eyes off on the last day of 2020, I was summarizing my and 2020 as a whole. Since a lot has happened in our lives in this 2020 hence,I thought what would I say to 2020 if 2020 was a person? What would my conversation be like, with her (I want to refer to the year as her just like we refer "earth" as mother ). Knock!! Knock!! Knock!! I knew who it was as I invited 2020 for the farewell dinner at my place. Despite being very busy, it was a kind gesture of 2020 to accept my invitation and come to my place. Lets thank our Premier Mark Mcgowan for working so hard and preparing well since a long time so that I can invite people and 2020 for dinner.  I opened the door, there was 2020,I was very excited to see her as I had a lot to ask her as how her last day was ? she must have been very busy. But alas! I was surprised to see her in a very sad face and no excitement at all.  We sat down on the couch. Me: Do you want any tea, coffee or drink ? 2020: A glass of wate...
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A Mere Notification

 Grhhhhh.. (Mobile vibrates)   I woke up suddenly at the middle of night to check the updates, it was only a notification from a marketing company in a browser. I checked the notification and automatically my fingers were driven to social sites. It took another half an hour for me to scroll down the news feed and I went through the each application I had in my mobile before I put my phone down. It all started with one mere notification. Above was just an example of fraction of hours in a day. Once, I checked the phone usage hours ,even I was surprised to find that I was using the phone for more than six hours on my working days and more than 10 hours in my day off. It was alarming. And I thought of doing some research on “what was going on with me?” and found the term Tech addiction . Also called as Digital addiction, is similar as other addiction where the addict has an impulsive behavior disorder and is driven towards the source and if the source is not available the a...
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Those 15 minutes...

 Reflection, in itself has numerous meaning , among many i have listed some of them. According to a Cambridge English Dictionary, reflection is “an image of something on a mirror or any reflective surfaces.” “The definition of a reflection is a thought or writing about something, particular in the past, or what one sees when looking into a mirror or body of water.- Your Dictionary. And so on. Likewise, for me reflection is a image that you see on mirror, reflective surfaces or within you. Reflecting on the past acts or deeds gives you the space of analyzing the actions, reasons for it. i personally have a habit of reflection. I normally look back to what i have done. Sometimes i pen down the feelings and sometimes it just fades away with the train of thoughts. Although it is not considered good to bring work tensions out of work. After i finish my work i try to remember what did since the start of the shift and i find many areas that should have been different if only i had used a...
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